Self Doubt Rocks

Have I mentioned that before? You know, the fact that I doubt myself in pretty much all things? Self esteem black hole, that's me.

So the dude I'm apprenticing under has told me how great I am doing, has really made me feel that he isn't lying to me.

So things are good. I've been there a week, I am by no means ready to go forth and do it all on my own (which happens soon enough....) but it seems that should I be able to get my sleep schedule sorted out, I'll be rockin.

But then.

My boss, the Gary Busey look alike, he calls me today. He asks me if we can meet at a restaurant by the bakery before I go to work, so he can ask me some stuff. He sounds happy, chipper, positive. Happy to be speaking with me.

I agree to meet him. This meeting happens in 2 hours.

I have two more hours to panic.

T says that he is probably going to make me an offer--The other dude that works there was asked to sign a contract saying he would stay at least a year. That or he is going to tell me I am making more money or something.

I am also reasonably certain that this meeting is going to be a positive one. But still. I doubt. I panic.

Logically, I can't imagine what business person would have a 'bad' conversation with the noob minutes before the start of a shift.

But still.

I will report back with details tomorrow.